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Happy New Year! 2020 Now!
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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! We're now in the start of a new Decade, 2020. Hope everyone had wonderful Holidays and more!
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Merry Christmas. 2019
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Merry Christmas everyone. Hope it's a good one for you all.
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Yuuuuuuuuup.
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Yuuuuuup. Well, been doing a lot of thinking and all and came up to the decision, I might leave DA soon.
Mostly due to the fact i'm just hardly even a ghost here now. I hardly leave comments, i haven't posted anything here in about half a year or so and i already know i failed many people.
Don't worry, it's not depression. It's facts. I tried to keep up with everything but when it began with missing a few things due to work and then it snowballing out of control, i lost it somewhere.
There are those i tried to make amends with, sent them notes and all, and some didn't even reply and i was friends with them. But they chose to cut ties without saying why and all. If that's what they want, then it's fine. Those who did reply, i don't get to talk to them much either, even on discord.
I have been using Discord a lot though but even then, i can't keep up with many and i just end up becoming more scum.
Oh well. nothing much more i can do for stuff on DA anyway. My writings come to a grinding halt, not being able to do any kind of art doesn't help and just being unknown and unpopular, even when trying to make friends and all again doesn't help either.
So, i'll probably have my final decision by the end of the month if i want to keep the account here or not.
Laters.
Mostly due to the fact i'm just hardly even a ghost here now. I hardly leave comments, i haven't posted anything here in about half a year or so and i already know i failed many people.
Don't worry, it's not depression. It's facts. I tried to keep up with everything but when it began with missing a few things due to work and then it snowballing out of control, i lost it somewhere.
There are those i tried to make amends with, sent them notes and all, and some didn't even reply and i was friends with them. But they chose to cut ties without saying why and all. If that's what they want, then it's fine. Those who did reply, i don't get to talk to them much either, even on discord.
I have been using Discord a lot though but even then, i can't keep up with many and i just end up becoming more scum.
Oh well. nothing much more i can do for stuff on DA anyway. My writings come to a grinding halt, not being able to do any kind of art doesn't help and just being unknown and unpopular, even when trying to make friends and all again doesn't help either.
So, i'll probably have my final decision by the end of the month if i want to keep the account here or not.
Laters.
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Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates Christmas!
Happy Holidays to those who celebrate different Holidays!
And a Good New Year to everyone!
Hope you all enjoy the day, make wonderful memories, spend time with those you love, and smile!
See you all again in the year of 2019!
Laters!
Happy Holidays to those who celebrate different Holidays!
And a Good New Year to everyone!
Hope you all enjoy the day, make wonderful memories, spend time with those you love, and smile!
See you all again in the year of 2019!
Laters!
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Alright, I'm sorry, but it's starting to eat at me. I'm a gonna be sending out Apology Notes later to those who i made mad and all. I know i shouldn't let it bother me but it is and honestly, like i said before, i just want to get things cleared up. I know i been ignored before and all but dip, it's really getting to me being ignored, hated, and all without knowing why. I know i messed up and all but at least say why. Please.
sigh. If it's from how i was/am with being spiteful or letting the emotion's go or saying things on here or other places like Twitter, then i can understand why the annoyance and all. If it's about writing or stuff i owe or not keeping my word, then let me know so we can work things out.
I know i'm being a pest about it at this point but dip, i'm not gonna give up on the idea! I do want to make amends somehow or at least talk it out! I refuse to keep having things be left on a sour note cause of being ignored for my sheer stupidity and rants in the past! When tried to talk it out before, i get my head bitten off and then see others say encouraging words to people who were depressed and all like i was before or something, it threw me down more.
........I just want a chance to redeem myself and all.
I was gonna make a list and say it on here on who i wronged but i don't want to do something like that that'll make them even madder and all. Heck, some i know i want to talk with, have me blocked so bad and ignoring me like i'm the black plague that i can't even mention them cause i don't know if they have the same DA name and all.
The only thing i'm looking for right now is to clear the air and talk. I'm not looking for anything like pity or sympathy or stuff like that cause i know i don't deserve it. but when ya have people just ignore you or such for a long time, even when ya comment or try to talk to them, anyone would want to get the same thing solved!
Dip. This turned into a rant. Sorry about that all. But it is something important i want to do. There are some who can understand why want to do this so much since someone has probably gone through the same thing or something in someway.
Anyway, I'll probably send the apology notes out later once i finish work and all. It's a Saturday and have to do a morning shift in a while. Yeah, i'm writing this in the dead of night but then again, sleep schedule has gone out the window several times over and running on close to 5 hours sleep, it's something.
But yeah, Just saying this now and all when i should have done more and tried harder before. I'm still gonna say sorry as many times as i have to to clear problems like this and yeah, i know i'm repeating myself but writing things out is all i got.
Can't draw or MMD and all. holding myself back greatly from doing nothing but fetish writing cause i want to keep things open. Yeah i've been thinking about it but when trying to get even more into the groove of writing again, it's not gonna be easy. Nothing is anyway. I know my place and all and i'm fine with it. But i won't be knocked down and kept down anymore.
I'm going to keep moving and going and get more writing done, even if only one person reads it and all.
sigh. If it's from how i was/am with being spiteful or letting the emotion's go or saying things on here or other places like Twitter, then i can understand why the annoyance and all. If it's about writing or stuff i owe or not keeping my word, then let me know so we can work things out.
I know i'm being a pest about it at this point but dip, i'm not gonna give up on the idea! I do want to make amends somehow or at least talk it out! I refuse to keep having things be left on a sour note cause of being ignored for my sheer stupidity and rants in the past! When tried to talk it out before, i get my head bitten off and then see others say encouraging words to people who were depressed and all like i was before or something, it threw me down more.
........I just want a chance to redeem myself and all.
I was gonna make a list and say it on here on who i wronged but i don't want to do something like that that'll make them even madder and all. Heck, some i know i want to talk with, have me blocked so bad and ignoring me like i'm the black plague that i can't even mention them cause i don't know if they have the same DA name and all.
The only thing i'm looking for right now is to clear the air and talk. I'm not looking for anything like pity or sympathy or stuff like that cause i know i don't deserve it. but when ya have people just ignore you or such for a long time, even when ya comment or try to talk to them, anyone would want to get the same thing solved!
Dip. This turned into a rant. Sorry about that all. But it is something important i want to do. There are some who can understand why want to do this so much since someone has probably gone through the same thing or something in someway.
Anyway, I'll probably send the apology notes out later once i finish work and all. It's a Saturday and have to do a morning shift in a while. Yeah, i'm writing this in the dead of night but then again, sleep schedule has gone out the window several times over and running on close to 5 hours sleep, it's something.
But yeah, Just saying this now and all when i should have done more and tried harder before. I'm still gonna say sorry as many times as i have to to clear problems like this and yeah, i know i'm repeating myself but writing things out is all i got.
Can't draw or MMD and all. holding myself back greatly from doing nothing but fetish writing cause i want to keep things open. Yeah i've been thinking about it but when trying to get even more into the groove of writing again, it's not gonna be easy. Nothing is anyway. I know my place and all and i'm fine with it. But i won't be knocked down and kept down anymore.
I'm going to keep moving and going and get more writing done, even if only one person reads it and all.
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